I have been on a conscious journey to come closer to God and others for over a decade.

I was drawn onto this path by my own pain and difficulty dealing with the edge between me and the world.

I remember Highschool was a particularly pivotal time for me when it came to others. I was bullied by older students, embarrassed in matters of the love. Betrayal became an expectation and one I wielded as much as suffered. I ruined friendships and alienated people.

When it came to matters of Faith, after an initial 'awakening' of Christ within me at age 12 , I became disillusioned and repulsed by hypocrisy, scandal and overbearing righteousness I saw in the official church. I put down my Faith thinking it had no home.

This social dysfunction and existential ennui led me to alcoholism and a string of failed romances, aborted careers and debilitating physical injury.

It was not until I studied psychotherapy at the age of 36 that I really started turning my relationships with others around. And ironically, 2 years into my Masters Degree, I literally heard a voice in my head telling my to press pause on my studies and "deepen your walk with God". So I did and spent a year healing my relationship with God and reconciling with the Church. 1 year turned into 5 and along that way I met my wife-to-be, formed my own "off-grid" spiritual fellowship and continued to walk my path as a disciple in this modern age.

Over a period of dedicated and inspired reckonings, my relationship life has turned around. Immanuael. God is with me and I am with him. Who I was is not who I am. I have been blessed with a way out the simmering darkness and shown a path to the light.

As I walk it now, so I reach out to you to invite you to walk it with me.

Sam Edward